You know that thing you used to do?
I can't stop thinking about it.
Not that one, but that one.
The one that put a smile on my face?
Yeah do you remember when you used to be able to do that?

Make me smile?
Because the smile is beginning to fade.
and I can't even remember what it felt like
or even looked like.
but mostly felt like.

And I'm four cups of coffee in
And its not wonder why I can't sleep.
And you've been running through my mind all day.

stop making this harder for me than it needs to be.
Please?
That's all I want.

And I know I've moved on But seeing you with someone else is killing me. And this isn't fair for him or me And all the memories I tried to erase just keep flooding back Fuck.

You are not alone.
no matter what anyone tries to tell you.
You aren't alone.
Someone out there fucking loves you
and they just haven't found you yet
or they aren't ready to tell you yet.

be patient.
He is out there giving flowers to a girl that isn't you
but he hasn't met you yet.

be patient.
He already loves you,
He just doesn't know what you look like.

be patient.
for love will always find its way
even in the darkest of nights.

I wish I had someone I could go to when the monster in my closet come out at night.
My knight in shining armor isn't answering his phone
And I'm sick and tired of being put on hold.

Here's to our wasted youth.
Here's to the romantic comedies that fuck up our reality and cause us to simply dream much bigger than the universe allows us to.

Here's to the unlit candles
and loosing our virginity in the back of some guys car
that will wake up tomorrow and no longer care about us.

Here's to you.
You aren't alone, even though you may feel like it.

I know I do.

I am still Nobody.

I will not always be nobody.